Dependence On God

Wow! We have a lot going on and I am not even talking about the upcoming holidays, of course they are included, but not what is causing all of our busyness. Matt, our son-in-law, came home from Afghanistan for R&R time in October. Well, while he was home he was offered a job in Texas, he didn't know what to do, should he take the job or not? Well he prayed about it along with the rest of us. Matt asked God to show him what to do. On the Sunday before he was supposed to go back to Afghanistan he had pretty much resigned himself to going back, he told God "well if a job doesn't become available I am going back", as soon as he prayed this about 20 minutes later the phone rang it was the job in Texas calling and said if he wanted the job he could have it. Excitement filled the air but then Matt started having second thoughts, should I take it, that is a long way, what do you think we should do, Hannah? Well after much thought he decided maybe he should just go back. Then he got to thinking again, and again he prayed, "God I haven't received all the paper work for this job in Texas of you really want me to take this job in Texas then the paperwork is going to have to come." What happens next....the Fed Ex truck pulls into the driveway and what are they delivering? You guessed it, the paperwork he is waiting for, so now Matt says ok we are going to Texas.....wait a minute not so fast still more paperwork is needed via email and it hasn't come yet. Well Matt is to leave for Afghanistan on Sunday and that day is getting mighty close. He is still debating what to do on Sunday morning. He says he can't see himself getting on the plane to head back butstill they head to the airport not knowing what to do. At the airport he cannot hardly get out of the car, he does not want to go back, but he is at the airport so off he goes. He is very uncomfortable about his decision and Hannah is having a very hard time with him going back, she said this time was much harder than when he left the first time. Why? Was God saying stay home? I don't know but I do know that they were depending on God either way. Hannah was very upset and she called and we talked much of the afternoon. Ed and I had gone to the FDR State Park and took the dog for a walk, which having the dog that day is another story....I feel a new blog coming : ),being in the mountains I did not have much phone service. We would talk and then lose signal which was upsetting especially since Hannah was upset and wanted to talk. Well by the end of our phone conversation that day she had got her a plane ticket and the next morning, Monday, she and Isaiah were flying to Atlanta and I was picking them up. This was a first for me, going to the Atlanta airport by myself, but again with dependence on God and His help I made it there and everything went great. Hannah got a call from Matt and he had made it to Afghanistan safely. Hannah stayed the week with us and on Saturday we; Ed, Hannah, Isaiah, and me, got in the car and headed back to KY. Ed had to go to Kansas the following week for work and Hannah, Isaiah, and me were flying to MD on Monday to visit and help my parents. Again God was working, my mom had her port (from when she was having chemo treatments) taken out that Monday and was unable to do much for 48 hours so my visit that week was truly a blessing with God's timing. We did not even realize that they would need this help, but God did. Well, back to Matt in Afghanistan......guess what came via email while he was there? You guessed it the papers he was waiting for from Texas. Now he didn't know what to do again, so he told Hannah, if I am supposed to come back there will be a plane heading out with room for me, he didn't think this was likely being this close to the holidays and many soldiers headed for home for R&R. But again God was working, Matt checked about a flight heading back to the United States,I think it was on Monday, and there was one seat left on a flight that was going out that Wednesday. Wow! He reserved this seat and started his out process. He was to begin work in Texas the following Tuesday....uh oh, he didn't know he was going to have to go to Indiana and N. Carolina for out processing and it takes a week to get an appointment. He may have to stay in Afghanistan if he can't start work on time in Texas they may not give him the job. So he calls The Army Depot in Texas where he is supposed to start work, guess what they want him to wait a week and start the following Tuesday because the main person he is working for is not going to be able to be there until the following week. God's work is written all over this, Matt ended up not even having to go to Indiana just to N. Carolina, and he was able to all to complete everything he had to do there in a day. Of course there is still a lot to work out, Matt went to work this week in Texas and will be coming home to Hannah and Isaiah tomorrow for Thanksgiving and then back to Texas on Sunday for work. There is still the move ahead of them but it looks like Matt has found them a nice apartment to rent but as I look back on all that has happened in the last month for them and many other examples in our past God at work is written all over our lives, even when our faith was very small, smaller than a mustard seed. God wants us to depend totally on Him, this is hard but with examples such as these I wonder why it is hard, I am guilty of worrying and not depending on Him as I should. Unlike us as human parents who are proud and so happy when our children learn to go potty by themselves, dress themselves, feed themselves, and as they get older be able to become more and more independent, (these things are important and we should be happy when they are doing them independently) but God wants us to never become independent of Him. He wants us always to be dependent on Him and He will never fail us. Great is His faithfullness....every morning new mercies He gives us. Lamentations 3:25 says "The Lord is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for Him." So as I look back and also look forward to whatever is to come I pray that no matter what decisions we need to make we will seek God first and stay dependent on Him and remember how He was faithful to us and already had everything worked out, we didn't have to worry. Let's not become so independent that we forget that we are very dependent on God, and I am still working on this but I cannot do this by myself....I have to be DEPENDENT ON GOD for His help.